I Don't Even Know What To Title This

I really didn't. And I still don't know exactly where my place is in this whole discussion/argument that's going on. All I do know is I have realized the people that annoy me the most. People with such a high sense of entitlement, that they know all and can just say whatever and not give a fuck. Maybe it has to do with the fact that some people have higher self-esteems than others, but I think the worst is when someone, who is so clearly of a lower self-esteem puts themselves off as if they don't have an issue. That they are "intelligent" if they discuss the issues and psycho-analysis everything. Because, I'm sorry, but who are they to say anything about another person, and discuss that person's well-being when they themselves are so clearly problematic and seems to love to tell people that they are. Why do we need to know you have "a dark past?" I certainly don't. I tend to not talk about the skeletons in my closet unless needed. Because to me, when you think that you're better than the rest of the drunks and depressed because you say you are? That doesn't make you better. It makes you fucking ignorant and rude.

It's the people like "Perez Hilton" who think that they know all. It's even more hilarious when they hate on people for the same thing that they themselves are doing. Why do these people think they are so much better than themselves? When they clearly are not. Because they are lacking something inside that gives them their confidence. They hate on people and feel the need to tell everything because they need to feel that they are just that important to tell people these things. I don't really give a crap where you're from, what you've been through, and if you want to tell me those things, then fine. But at the right time. You are no better than I because you can tell people you've been through shit, so you can just sit down.

I know this is the age of technology, and voyeurism, but really, do we need to know every little detail about your relationship? You need to share that with the WORLD? Honestly, think about it. If you really only want to tell people you care about, talk to them on the phone. But they can't, because these people feel that the entire world needs to know about their issues.

And I know, I may seem like an intense hypocrite when I write this, especially where telling the world what they think, but I do not contest that I am not a hyporcrite. I am stupid in the fact I need to blog things, but these were my thoughts, and I wanted to share. This is a general based writing(though I do have certain people in mind when I write about this), and I am not claiming that my opinion is the end-all, be-all. Really, I don't think anyone is better than anyone else, and everyone is entitled to their opinion, but I think that certain people need to "get off their high horse." They may not realize it, but they are so desperate for approval and such, they need to put others down, to make themselves feel better. For example, I may say, I hate So-and-So because of these reasons, but is there a need for me to write a list of celebrities that don't deserve to be celebrities? Really? I find no point in that. Just because you wrote it, doesn't mean that someone is going to see it and go, "Shit, you know, Oprah is a bitch, take it all away, she doesn't deserve it." I personally hate Oprah, but she does a lot for people and I'll admit, worked her ass off to be where she is. She can deserve it as much as anyone else. I just don't like her attitude. That still doesn't mean she doesn't deserve all she'd gotten.

Again, I'm sounding hypocritical. I know I am. I write a lot of things, and I contradict myself constantly. But whatever. These were my thoughts on someone.

And as to the reason I do love to blog, is because I enjoy feedback. As in, I want to be a writer some day, and this can be practice.

Peace.




I don't exactly know why I wrote that.

Not working...sad face(I tried a spock hand...)

Fucking LEGEND.

I'm posting about Michael Jackson, and I don't give a fuck who cares. The world lost a music legend. Along the lines of Elvis Presley and John Lennon, he changed the face of music. Really. He was the King of Pop, and NO ONE can deny that.

I sadly never had a CD of his, but I simply always understood that Michael was amazing, and I always believed in him. I really did. To all those bitches who insult him and say what they can about the court stuff, Fuck off.

I mean, I truly believe this man was a broken soul. He never had a childhood, and has worked since the age of five. He simply wanted to be a child. And yes, he acted with little children like other little kids would, and he may be criticized for it, but I'm sorry, I don't believe he touched one of those kids. And I always believed that. I think that he was forced into so much so early by his father, and he had so many psychological problems because of it.

That being sad, I cried when I heard. His music is so well known, and he was an amazing dancer, and he had this amazing comeback coming. Goddamn it, I wish he could've done it. It's so tragic, and just...horrible.

Watching MTV and reminiscing. A true legend has been lost.

Whatever.

I'm pretty sure my life is just a "whatever" after another. haha I love not caring. And getting over things.


I also need to not read year old anger. lmao it still makes me mad.


I've turned nocturnal. Like as in, I should be sleeping.


I need a job. But I don't want one. And I don't think I'll have one. Is it possible to not shop all summer? I'm gonna try...=[


Whatever.

Oh How Things Change

So I was gonna write "Oh how the tables have turned" but it really didn't feel appropriate. Things have changed because as i drift away slowly from certain people and as they get closer to others, I find myself comforted by old friends. Some I never thought I'd talk to, some I've missed like crazy, and some I never thought I'd keep in contact with. And it's nice, you know? When you're stuck at home simply writing song after song about pain, its nice to be reminded that there are people that do miss you, and want to talk. Gosh, next thing I know all the people from college will suddenly be like, "OMG I've missed you!" Haha NOT. I'm glad I had no friends at college, because now I can just start over. :)

And who knows how this summer is gonna go.....I feel winds are changing that weren't supposed to change. OH WELL. I guess I have to let people live their lives, with or without me. I guess I'm stuck pretending I'm find, just fine. haha. Song idea? I think so.








And beeteedubs, I'm marrying the movie Speed Racer. Look out for our announcement. This movie is effing amazing.

Wanna know who else is Awesome?

Musso. Mitchel Musso.

Wah-BAM!
Radnom Shout Out babies.

100 Monkeys Sittin' on a Bed. 1 fell off &....Turned into a Vampire?

Feast your eyes on me and 4 of 100 Monkeys. :D One of which would be rocking a ZQGQMF hat(Zachary Quinto GQ Mother Fucker, for you non-cool people) hat, and is JACKSPER! Yes, I met Jacksper. Life is good.

RE: Fly With Me

So I'm the bruised princess
And you're the white knight
You fly in through my window
Just take your hand, so easy
But baby, it isn't

I'm paranoid, petrified
I've fallen before
I've got the scars to prove it
I don't think I can fly with you
I'm too terrified to fall

So I'm the broken butterfly
And you're the golden eagle
Close my eyes, we could soar
Just hold on tight, so easy
But baby, it isn't

I'm paranoid, petrified
I've fallen before
I've got the scars to prove it
I don't think I can fly with you
I'm too terrified to fall

When you look me in the eyes,
I'm caught off guard
There's everything we could be
But I can't take your hand
You're the cartoon of joy
Ready to whisk me at the window
But the drop's too high

I'm paranoid, petrified
I've fallen before
I've got the scars to prove it
I don't think I can fly with you
I'm too terrified to fall

So it's you and me right now
And it could be us forever
You're the strong shadow
I just take your hand, so easy
Breathe once, I'm ready to fly.

I Should Update....

But I dont know what to say. My life is turned into 140 character thoughts. Awesome.

Look at this, another post.

I felt everyone needed to know. I got to meet Honor Society. Amazingness all around. me and Michael Bruno eye-fucked for a bit, I'm gonna say. I got an amazing guitar pick from Jason Rosen. I met Micheael Bruno and Alex Noyes, and Andrew Lee, and Jason Rosen. Jason liked my skirt. Michael liked my glasses. Pretty sure that's why he picked me as the one to eye-fuck for a while. Okay, we eye-flirted. Whatever. It was an awesome moment. It was just an awesome day overall. Awkward moments at points. Lots of stares. I don't understand why people don't like to see crazy-outfits. Haters gonna hate.


I need sleep. Instead I watched the second episode of Jonas. Better than the first. I'm hooked. haha

I Could Totally Paint Faces, Right?

Come on, it's can't be THAT hard...right? I need a job this summer. PRONTO. Like, for realsies. And me and my sister painting faces? M-F, flexible hours. I could rock that shit. Of course, then I might lose out on my paleness. Oh no, then I'd stop dazzling!!! BOO. I love to dazzle, and not get leathery skin. Yep

I need to update this more. I'm lazy. I also tweet too much. I apparently tweet during the 9 o'clock hour the most. Eh, I don't know. I just know that tonight is ANTM and I'm one of the lucky bitches who doesn't have a lot of work. I have work. Just not a lot.

oh yeah, if anyone still does visit this, visit: http://demistylesource.com yep.

OH YEAH! and



Tiffany is awesome. She'd be awesomer if she went to Hershey on Sat. I just need a Demi tweet saying she's going. I'll legit die.

Oh and wanna count? That's two celeb tweets back. I feel very cool. Now, to just get Demi to notice my site. :)

Oh yeah, I'll update this more, k?